I've come to realize I am no longer the sole influence in my daughter's lives anymore. I used to be able to control what they say or what they hear and what they wear and what they eat..... with both the girls in school, I'm no longer in total control and I will admit its a bit scary and overwhelming!
Ellie now stays at school all day. She eats there now and I can't control what she eats or doesn't eat. Ellie is kind of a picky eater so I'm not sure what she all eats while she is in school. I ask her when I pick her up and most of the time she says she ate the oranges or occasionally she will eat the main dish, but honestly I'm not sure she eats much. But i have to learn to let her try new things or go hungry. I can't make her eat when she is in school, I only hope her teachers watch and make sure she eats at least something.
I also can't control the things she hears at school or the things she says at school ( hopefully its never anything bad). Today she came home from school and kept saying come on, come on. I was a bit annoyed cause I know its not something we say a lot of and I know it wasn't bad, but it was annoying and unnecessary.
As a mom, there are so many times where I want to protect my kids and keep them from the outside world, but they are growing and want to learn new things. They take big steps without me and look back only to say "look what I can do." They will get hurt some times, but I have to learn to kiss the boo boos and tell them it will be ok and try to let them learn from their mistakes or learn from their accomplishments. Its hard to know that they are growing and soon they will be wanting less of my attention and more of my money, but thats life and I as a mom have to let them live and pray that God watches over them and keeps them safe. I also have to hope and pray that they have listened to what we have taught them and that they grow in faith and love. I pray my tender hearted girls will be strong and brave in this scary and cold world!
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